it's fucking everyone.

Jake: "You have to move on with your life. It's not just you that's suffering. It's everyone. It's fucking everyone. You have to forget him. He's gone. Dead. And he'll never come back. Jus-"

Charlie: "I know! You think I don't know that? You think tha- that as each horrible day passes, that I don't want to move on? It's not easy. It's not as simple as going to sleep and waking up where everything's fine. Where everything is normal. I'm... I'm scared and lost and I don't know what to do."

"Scared? Why are you scared? There's nothing to be afrai-"

"Because I'm scared that moving on with my life. That... that letting go of this anger inside me would mean I'm letting go of him in his entirety. That I would be forgetting him. And I don't want that. I don't want to ever forget him. Dead or not."

-Rae

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This Figure I Met

i thought bravery possessed me,

but fear soon overwhelmed me,

and it slowly consumed me.

i felt my body aching,

as it was slowly fading,

before i could start screaming,

i was long dreaming.

the man i met ,

in this place i wept,

he was blurry -,

 but he looked sad.

 i was lost,

 but he said "don't be scared".

he asked me something,

though i heard nothing.

"where would I want to be",

he asked once more.

"where do I want to be"

he whispered listlessly

i started thinking,

and spoke unwavering,

"if chance would let me

i'd want to go back".

then he started smiling.

he broke into pieces,

that turned into darkness.

i became scared again,

but somehow time felt slowing,

and my body started breaking.

there i was, back again

light poured into my eyes,

and pain seared wherever it could go.

i began shouting

"what the hell is happening"

my ears were hurting

"sir, you were dying

but we've got your heart going

and we're nearly reaching"

-Rae

The way you're singing in your sleep 

The way you look before you leap 

The strange illusions that you keep 

You don't know 

But I'm noticing 

The way your touch turns into arcs 

The way you slide into the dark 

The beating of my open heart 

You don't know 

But I'm noticing

-David Levithan