hi, i like you (5):

i haven't done this in a pretty long time and it feels almost strange to me. but yeah, i feel like there's a need.

hi, i like you. this is going to sound incredibly superficial of me (but if we include third party sources then it's a lot less superficial) but i like you a lot cos' you're really cute. the bullshit of love (or attraction) at first sight... i don't know if i still believe in it, but this feels so right. okay i sound obsessed (which i am). you are incredibly cute. i like you a lot.

see what i mean by strange. it's foreign to the extent that i can't justify my reasons. should probably blog more to maintain my writing standard (like blog/life writing, not just prose/poetry). yeah, i will.

my life as of late has been fine. bouts of melancholy here and there but that's life and there's nothing we can do about it but suck it up and move on. still, i kinda really miss the days where i didn't feel so hollow. yeah. okay this post is clearly depressing, and i'm determined to make it at least emotionless. so i'm just gonna say that i've got halfday on friday, which is awesome. and then it's back to me searching for my misplaced emotions again on friday and saturday night.

goodbye.

hi, i like you (4):

it's you again, always you. you're so awesome luh. gorgeous and flawless. i can't stand how sars and i are always blatantly gawking at you. it's hilarious! but we do it anyway cos' with your face (and personality... don't really know what you're like but you seem really nice) deserve to have creepers like us, heh. since school is going to end officially i reckon i'll be doing something drastic and totally embarrassing, hoping that it'll all end well and we'll end up as friends and even more (baby you know what i mean). and if we do, you'll find out eventually that i've been a creeper from day one and feel (you better) immensely flattered to have a lover like me. okay, i need to stop fantasizing cos' this might end up going nowhere, operation down the rabbit hole might not work out and i will need to start digging my own hole to bury my shame in. seriously speaking though, you're hot. and i know this may sound pretty superficial but hey, if you're hot inside out then it'll all work out right! plus the fact that i think you're physically attractive while my friends dismiss my open proclamation means something right? i need to stop now because if i continue it will probably end up as a thesis about you.

only you baby, only you.

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How can you trust your feelings when they can just disappear like that?

the quote from Blue Valentine left a deep impression on me. i mean, the theme of fleeting love ran throughout the film (almost said 'poem'). i know it's pretty ironic to place this after talking about attraction but yeah. i guess my answer would be that you it doesn't matter. i mean, trust is something so... intangible and abstract that there is no point in defining it. sure, it probably means 'faith in someone'. but what is 'faith'? which again, means 'belief', another abstract word. i suppose all you can do is just to go for it, regardless of what you trust. either it works out or it doesn't (wow, dr. phil). in the end as i'm always telling everyone, it's what happened, not what happens.

/end deep thought.

hi, i like you (3):

hi i like you, because you're really really hot and just so i don't come off as superficial, your character seems amazing from a stranger's (creeper) point of view. i don't think i have ever thought anyone in real life to be that hot and larmy says i've attached 4-different adjectives to her insult to you (she calls you a rabbit... jeez) but that's because her insult is invalid and you look awesome. like neon trees "i wanna be more than friends". but then again, we need to be friends first and i don't know how to break the stranger-creeper barrier between us. 

hi i like you, even though you made me so embarrassed with myself for doing something thoroughly foolish. oh well, you're still gorgeous.

hi i like you, ACTUALLY I'M FUCKING PISSED AT YOU RIGHT NOW AND I JUST WANTED TO SAY THIS SOMEWHERE, ANYWHERE. you are so annoying and i don't know what you're trying to do because you're incredulously capricious like that one katy perry song where she rants about her beau being hot n' cold. sheesh, either leave me the hell alone or be a little more consistent. i'm not an emotional towel that's always hanging on the rack you know. the more i think about it the more livid i get. 

hi i like you, actually i don't. i feel the same for you as the aforementioned individual but i'm not as pissed, more of annoyed. but if you're gonna be like this in the long-term then seriously, just piss off. ugh. and i'm seriously peeved when people ask or say something obscure and i reply "huh?" or "what?" to clarify but you go "nothing, nvm". 

hi, i like you (2):

1. yes i do. OMG you actually spoke to me yesterday OMG. *adds on facebook. great, now we're 'friends' of which i'm the creepy stalker, yay, roleplay foreplay (kidding... not really... nah). and i was way too stoned to realize till Sarah told me at night. damn.

2. i still do and it kinda irks me cos... yeah, let's just leave it at that else i'd go on writing a paragraph and then a thesis but anyway, i still do! but sheesh, not as much as i used to. i mean, you're great and all but why do you gotta go be someone you're not?! i mean, i'm totally fine (in fact i'd do that to) with not acknowledging something you don't want to through misleading answers (though you probably will not have the capacity to luh, since you're not really good with words and everything...). actually i'd give totally misleading and unasked-for answers just cos' it's hilarious but anyway, i wouldn't blatantly lie about who i really am! it's like telling someone you hate nachos but deep inside you love them like how a bulimic loves the toilet. there's a difference between:

said situation 1; 

'do you like nachos?'

'NO I HATE THEM, GOD THEY SUCK SO BAD. WHY DO YOU EVEN ASK THIS. NEVER NACHOS NEVER.' 

(when you love them to bits)

v.s. said situation 2;

'do you like nachos?'

'like how you love your dog.'

(when friend does not have mentioned pet)

OR

'whatever floats your boat, beb'

OR

'i don't know, do you, hobo?'

OR

'pie.'

see the difference: denial and hilarious digression. jeez.

3. i do but the reason is just plain lame. we share similar interests. but like how chick lit authors (which i assume they would... stereotypes are based on a general truth) are always preaching that 'similarities provide the foundation to every relationship and then the difference comes in and ...' i do! still, you're a really pretentious person (and i already am fairly pretentious) and Joanna says you look like an elf... that needs no explanation.

4. just cos' you're zoe saldana and i'm remus ang. what more need i say? by the way, Colombiania, totally going to watch that.

5. i will forever love you adele. i love how progressively unrelated this post is.

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macklemore is insanely good.

he is amazing.

like eminem.

okay, maybe not like eminem. if eminem were king he'd be the prince though.

OKAY BYE GEOG. dang this is a long post.
baby i know.

hi, i like you:

hi, i like you, but you don't. or at least i think you don't. i don't know. but i like you somatically more than i like you emotionally. you behave like a stick, i'm sorry, there's nothing deep about that, and it's probably an arts thing for me to think of you this way. i still like you though, despite your shameless lasciviousness and all your endeavors to satisfy it, probably the most seeing how i know more about you and you know more about me.

hi, i like you, but you're attached... and that kind of sucks. but still, you're gorgeous. and smart too. that's pretty cool; being smart and gorgeous and all. breaking relationships is socially-wrong, so there's that.

hi, i like you, but i don't know you that well, actually i barely know you. but the stories i've heard about you kind of suck, though i try not to listen to them. you seem pretty amicable, plus you look good. that's nice.

hi, i like you, but you probably don't know i exist at all. you are hot, seriously, hottest i've ever known. attractive on so many levels. shit, i wanna know you. if only.

hello, liking someone is more exhausting than i thought it would be.