Nothing scarier than reality

'stop being like this will you!'

'stop being what? YOU need to stop. YOU need to stop living in this -- this lie you've conjured! this LIE you've led everyone to believe in!'

'what are you talking about? this 'lie' is what keeps everyone going. this 'lie' is why we're still fighting. this 'LIE' is why we're all still here!'

'you're wrong. this, this world you've made. it's impossible to break. in here, in this... this shell you've made, it's suffocating. there's no longer any room for new boundaries. there's no longer any room for life. there's no longer any room for HAPPINESS.'

'then leave! leave for all i care! let them take you. let them do whatever they want to you. but don't expect me to bring your body back.'

'FINE, if you want me to leave, i'll leave.'

She throws his arms away and grabs the already-prepared knapsack off her bed. She stops at the door and voices her departure.

'you know what? Landon wouldn't have wanted this. he knew when it was time. when it was time to wake up. you... you're just living in self-deceit. and you're pulling everyone down into this nightmare you've somehow managed to disguise as eden. but between the cracks, from the outer blood-stained walls, when that all comes crashing down, you'll realize there's nothing scarier than reality.'

-Rae

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National day was fun, :D

She.

she sought love

through razor-blades

upon her wrists

she found joy

in a needle's prick

liquid into her veins

they found her in an alley

her corpse on a pool of crimson

-Rae 

Angst.

When all the brightest lights

start drowning night by night

you don't know where to go

you don't know what to believe

and you don't even know what got you here

in the first place

you say life's catching up

but stop, you're already living in the past

what's there to fret?

you're barely there anyway

you try illusions and tricks

but they don't work

they merely make you tick

what's wrong with you?

"i feel nothing no more"

you stand over the edge

the rush has gotten into your head

adrenaline overwhelms you

a quick salvation takes you through

and you fall

you let yourself fall

your worries fade into the cool night

as apartment lights flick light by light

they've been crammed into an

already filled cabinet

but you don't care

cos' you aren't there anymore.

-Rae