ugh:

We are always
excited with the intrusion
of an unexpected stranger
into our lives;
unexpected, but
welcomed.

And then the excitement fades
and all we see are flaws;
flaws we cannot ignore.

We try to look past the flaws,
and it succeeds;
a secret
stowed deep inside a closet.

But flaws,
they stay:
a nagging memory
begging
to be recalled
to engulf your mind,
your soul,
with thoughts
 you cannot ignore.

at-traction, re-traction.

why is it that the more we talk to each other, the more i fall for you?

but why is it that the more we talk to each other, the more i'm less interested in you?

silly boy, it's called attraction! here's how you get over it:
realize that even though they mean a whole lot to you,
you, like your individual self-worth,
the one that defines you?
they don't really care about that,
that really doesn't matter to them at all.

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i want:

brown cardi,

sneakers, formal-ish shoes, 

shorts, jeans, chinos.

going to (update about):

face-painting

tunglok

sukiya

right now:

A.A Bondy - I can see the pines are dancing

love this song forever.

 i am a fire and i must burn today.